Saturday, July 9, 2011

A slightly better introduction

I am currently trying to explain who I am to those who don't know already. I'm finding it to be rather difficult. I have always had issues trying to figure out where to begin. I should start at the beginning of course, but I have trouble figuring out exactly where that is. So I babble and rant and ultimately don't make anything clear. I'm going to try to introduce myself again, hopefully with better results.

My name is Poe, I work for a monster.

Why I work for him is a long complicated matter that I don't really want to get into right now, but for the past six months I have been reading the blogs of his victims and pinpointing their location. It's interesting work, and I feel terrible that sometimes I enjoy it. I do not like who I work for, but that is sort of irrelevant. I work for him anyway.

My boss is called The Slender Man. I feel nervous about saying his name, so please forgive me if I never say it again. He scares me, and the farther I put him from my mind the happier I am.

I like classic literature and anime. I am not really a fan of shonen, and really like shows with good character development and dark themes. I used to watch Yu-Gi-Oh when I was younger, though I am sort of embarrassed about that. The abridged series was pretty good. I can't watch it anymore though. It's sort of funny what brings back unpleasant experiences.

I've mentioned my partner Caper a few times. He was the closest thing I had to a friend here. He helped me through a very tough time. We lived together. He was also incredibly easy to work with. He saved a child from, well you know who, and he personally showed up to kill him. I watched the whole thing.

I feel overwhelmed as well as lost and broken. I have had to take over all of his blogs, and I can't split the field work between two people. As much as I feel like I'm betraying Caper, I asked Jacob to give me another partner. I'd like to think that he'd understand, and that he knows how I felt about him. But it still feels wrong.

I had a dream about him the other day. He told me that I needed to live without him now, and that I was strong enough to do it. Then before he left, he leaned over and whispered his real name.

I wish I could remember it.


  1. I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say, but I wish there was something I could do.

  2. The whole world is indifferent to your suffering. He is indifferent to your suffering. You are as useless in life as you are in death.

  3. Aw, sweetie. I doubt Caper would've wanted you in more danger by working alone. You give Messi a call, y'hear? Seems like you need some cheering up.
    S'...not something I can do. Hang in there, kid.

  4. Heya, Glasshole. Shut yer face. Poe, kiddo sweetie darlin', if you're into anime you should give Neon Genesis Evangelion a look-see. Zeruel reminds me of your boss...except he gets his ass kicked in the end. Just a thought.