I haven't been writing my own blog for a while. I've had others to take care of, and some fieldwork, and a couple other things that I don't really want to talk about. Or can talk about. I'm breaking a lot of rules right now, but there are some things that I can't go against.
Strange. I think I just heard a bell ring.
Screwtape's been a big help with the blogs, though he's always watching for me to mess up somehow. He's certain that eventually this will happen. I think he doesn't trust me. Trackers shouldn't blog. I don't think I can be who I'm supposed to be though. I try, but It's hard to figure out a careful balance.
Ringing again. I don't know where it's coming from.
Screwtape does do his job well though, despite the fact that he hates me. I guess anyone who reads the Messenger's blog knows why now.
You see, I used to be a runner.
A lot of things happened, and I'm not anymore. Screwtape is a very interesting guy. Having to work with him has shown me that. He's of the type that believes that, well you know who, is a god of some sort. Back when I lived with him I actually saw him pray. One of Screwtape's beliefs is that... well, that you know who will take care of people like me. That we all deserve to be husks. It's difficult to work here sometimes. Messi is the only one who really seems to even like me. It's hard without Caper.
And on top of Screwtape, my past is coming back all of a sudden. After Messi put up the interview, a guy named Donovan commented, telling us that he had talked about Annabel in a post shortly before the interview. He accused Messi of using this as some sort of mind game.
It isn't. It's me Don. I'm sorry.
I was tracking him, trying to keep him safe by saying that he'd lead us to more runners. I don't know why. I thought he had left me at the hotel. He says he didn't, but that's what I thought. I wanted to help him anyway. He was nice, and he told me about M's rules not working. I felt like I owed him something.
Except then he said he was going to be more careful about what he put up about other runners. Then he talked about me. Screwtape wants to go after him now.
I'm so sorry Don.
